Chapter 2.16 : The freezing cold of winter ...

In the freezing cold of winter,
where all that you see is snow,
where all that you feel is cold,
where all that you want is sold,
where all that you hear is 'no' ...

It is easy to blend when it turns warm,
the mind filled with enthusiasm,
the face radiates a genuine smile,
the senses in perfect synergy,
the people stood by you, in that time ...

It is easy to fade when it turns cold,
chaos bewilder the worn out mind,
inverted smiles hung on the unwilling face,
numbness froze the senses to a stop,
behind towering shoulders do the people now stood.

It takes one wrong to overwrite a thousand rights,
so why do we even bother to make things right?
Why struggle to maintain this fight,
when you have already lost all might?
If bonds and ties are soft and light,
wouldn't it be better if we just took flight?

There can be no light without darkness,
but it is the good that you are accustomed and want to see.
When darkness falls,
where then would you be?
Amidst the same shadow we will be,
or away until you get what you want to see?

I think the answer is clear to thee ...

Chapter 2.15 : Hyperventilate ...

Choked, strangled, and suffocating.
Pain held my heart with a strong firm grip.
Lungs filled with a dreadful sourness, heavy.
The brain swells and burns intensely.
Body gravitates to the ground, muscles tensioned.
A sudden sharp pain befalls upon my knees.
The left clenching my chest, the right resisting.
On my left I fell, resting on the graveled ground.

Like a fish out of water, struggle ...

The warm Sun faded into the proud pale Moon.
The glittering stars hid behind clueless clouds that drift by.
The winds died as an arctic mist descends from the darkened sky.
The smell of death and decay hover above the stone cold earth.

Every breathe seems more excruciating to take,
like shards of icicles pierced right into soul.
Every pulse seems more agonizing then before,
as my brain combusts every thought to ash.
Every second seems more meaningless to pass,
as the will shatters into a million fragments.

Lost in the fading memories of pain ...

In my dimming vision I saw the flashbacks that brought this upon me.
The moment I decided to be here,
the moment we first met,
the moment we got along for a while,
the moment we crossed the line that was blind,
the moment we distanced because of doubt,
the moment we understood and rest a while,
the moment we crashed head-on until I bled,
the moment we ignore to suppress the questions,
the moment we forget our existence in both our lives.

Just shove a steel knife in my windpipe and silence me.
Melt me with your acidic words that goes through me.
Aim for me instead of the dry wall and fly you send me.
Plant your painful thoughts and distort the mind in me.
Flash that sinister grin and weave your lies in front of me.
Just stand there and watch as I succumb to the sorrows in me.

Hush now, do not hold your breath,
for these memories shall not rest.
Oblivious to the situation that is before thy eyes,
ignorant to the blood that was spilled on your account.
But what is the point of being raised again,
and to be put down by you all over again.

Hyperventilate ...

Chapter 2.14 : Ticking time bomb ...

You have witnessed something that should not have seen,
somethings that no one was meant to even know of.
If only I was strong enough to keep it in,
so that none of this would not have even happened.
But I guess I can't lie to one of the three,
for which I have sworn to be absolute with.

Fading into the shadows ...

My eyes turn blind to the things around me,
losing sight of what really matters the most to me.
My ears turn deaf to the words that you have said,
hearing not the meaning that you were trying to convey.
My lips are stitched up tight together,
losing the ability to express myself to you.
My body turns numb to external pain,
while the void inside swallows me from within.
My mind turns blank and empty,
forgetting what is black and white.
My heart turns cold and heavy,
it gets so hard to even breathe.

I cannot seek your help,
I cannot speak my mind,
I cannot look you in the eye,
I cannot sense you anymore
I cannot stand beside you anymore,
I cannot drag you into this.

Because I do not want to burden you with me.

Like a jug filled out of its brim,
I cannot be filled by anymore water.
Overflowing with the pain and misery of this world,
I have to empty it before I can start filling it up again.
Who knows one day that I might shatter under the pressure,
but be assured that you will never witness that should it ever happen.

A ticking time bomb has started in me ...

The further away you are from me,
the safer you are.
Though this is the point where I feel the coldest,
I have to do what have to be done.
If that is the only way to keep you safe,
then that is where I shall leave you at.
Knowing the consequences of my actions,
I understand if I am the only one left when this is over.
I guess this is why there are only three,
maybe now two ... just give me a sign ...

Tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, boooommmmmm ...