You have witnessed something that should not have seen,
somethings that no one was meant to even know of.
If only I was strong enough to keep it in,
so that none of this would not have even happened.
But I guess I can't lie to one of the three,
for which I have sworn to be absolute with.
Fading into the shadows ...
My eyes turn blind to the things around me,
losing sight of what really matters the most to me.
My ears turn deaf to the words that you have said,
hearing not the meaning that you were trying to convey.
My lips are stitched up tight together,
losing the ability to express myself to you.
My body turns numb to external pain,
while the void inside swallows me from within.
My mind turns blank and empty,
forgetting what is black and white.
My heart turns cold and heavy,
it gets so hard to even breathe.
I cannot seek your help,
I cannot speak my mind,
I cannot look you in the eye,
I cannot sense you anymore
I cannot stand beside you anymore,
I cannot drag you into this.
Because I do not want to burden you with me.
Like a jug filled out of its brim,
I cannot be filled by anymore water.
Overflowing with the pain and misery of this world,
I have to empty it before I can start filling it up again.
Who knows one day that I might shatter under the pressure,
but be assured that you will never witness that should it ever happen.
A ticking time bomb has started in me ...
The further away you are from me,
the safer you are.
Though this is the point where I feel the coldest,
I have to do what have to be done.
If that is the only way to keep you safe,
then that is where I shall leave you at.
Knowing the consequences of my actions,
I understand if I am the only one left when this is over.
I guess this is why there are only three,
maybe now two ... just give me a sign ...
Tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, boooommmmmm ...
